2 Cor 5:17 says, “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!”
Lovely readers of Verastically Livin,’ please excuse me while I get a lil serious. Yes, I know you’re not quite used to this. But contrary to popular belief, Vera can be serious oooo…. ehen. This is a scheduled post. At the time it appears on my blog, I’ll be in church, worshipping. What better way to bring in the New Year? Below is my public letter to God. Since everyone is on the internet these days; I figured God must be browsing Verastic.com every now & then, ey? [Yes, I’m still being serious].
Dear God,
2008 was something else. Honestly, I still do not know if I should call this a good or a bad year. Most times, it feels lukewarm. The highlight was the day I rededicated my life back to You. I can honestly say that life has not been the same since then. Unfortunately, since my rededication, I have done some things, said some things, and thought some things – all of which I should not have. But I have sought Your face after every fall. And I have hoped and believed that You have forgiven me.
I am sorry, Lord for everything I ever did to hurt Your feelings – and boy, do I have a long list of that. In retrospect, I realize just how very foolish I was. If I could, I would go back in time and undo so many things. Unsay so many words. And unthink so many thoughts. But I cannot. Honestly, what hurts most is the things that I have done. All those times I thought I was smart and grown, I realize now that I was foolish…and a mere baby before You.
I have been waiting anxiously – almost impatiently – for 2008 to end because the thought of it brings so much pain and sadness to my heart. You know these things, Lord. But I am hopeful that 2009 will be better. Ironically, the blessings and prayers I received in 2008 are the reasons I believe that 2009 will be better.
I am grateful for everything You did for me in 2008. For every time You were there to wipe my tears, console me, keep me company, guard me, guide me, listen to me, and even laugh with me, I am grateful. For every time You made a way for me and turned my mountain into an invisible pebble, I am grateful. I am grateful for the births (especially that of Busola’s baby, Chidi and my cousin in Nigeria whose name I shamefully do not know), and even though I do not understand why I should be, I am also grateful for the deaths too.
I am grateful for my life. I am grateful for my health. I am grateful that You preserved me. I know that not everyone I started the year with is here today, but You oh God, have preserved me. And I have done nothing to deserve this. I am grateful for the life of the man that I am so in love with – my father. You cleansed him of that liver malfunction, God. When I asked him what would happen if it was not taken care of and he answered – like a true doctor – precisely, concisely, and a little too bluntly, “Ultimately, death,” I thought my life was over. But my dad promised he was not going to die; he said he would live for me. I cried to You, and You, oh God restored his life. [Note to Funmi & Busola: Sorry I did not tell you about my dad’s condition. It was just too much to talk about.]
I am grateful for my mom’s life. Sometimes, I think of all she has gone thru on my behalf and I cannot help but break down and cry. I only hope to one day be able to spoil her the way I know she’d love to be spoilt: by giving her a few grand-children and then sending them all on vacation to Russia, so that I and my hubby can have some free time to frolic in the sun and possibly make some new babies. [Yes, I’m still being serious]. She is the best mother a girl could have ever prayed for. I trust You, Lord. I trust You to give me the opportunity to make her smile a smile that her face cannot contain.
So for 2009, oh God, I take all my troubles and I hand them over to You. Everything that has been troubling me, I hand them to You because I am powerless. My worrying can only get me so far; it has gotten me as far as it can, and it has not gotten me anywhere. By the end of 2009, I will be back here to give the testimony. You know the one, Lord. I thank You in advance for the message I will receive today. I thank You for the blessings, for the favors, and for the new beginning. I thank You in advance for helping me to publish my book in 2009. I thank You in advance for everything. I just thank You, Father. In retrospect, 2008 was a good year. But 2009 will be better. It will be great. Say Amen for me.
Happy New Year everyone!!! May 2009 bring you all of your heart’s desires according to God’s will. Amen. I’ll be back on Sunday, January 4th 2009.
DiAmOnD hawk says
Happy New Year chica
Amen to your prayer
Thank God for the life of your dad… thank God for you and your crazy self…
I just got back from church… I’m going to sleep now
🙂
Dorah says
Shaadi (aka marriage) for Vera Ezimora in 2009? We all know she wants it, so let’s make it happen. Though she’s only XX years old, God make it happen, for her mother’s sake, of course.
Afrobabe says
Happy New year darling, may all your dreams come to pass…
Qmoney says
happy new year
Remi, United Kingdom says
Happy New Year Vera…
Amen to all your prayers and then more 🙂
I pray for God’s strength, wisdom and power for you to rise, run and and reign all for his glory.
Hold steadfastly onto him, so that he keeps you within the realms of his will, keeping you save in his love and grace all the way through this year and others to come..
Start well and finish strong.
Much love
StandTall-The Activist says
Take all your trouble to God and He shall deal with them accordingly.
MERRY NU YR!
Boob Sista 1 says
Wish you the same and more.
God bless. xxx
Laughter says
Happy new year too babes. This is a fruitful year in Jesus name and all our prayers will be answered.
Danny Bagucci says
hey.. good to know you and God have sorted out your issues and you’re all cool and kosher… i’m hoping we (God and I) can resolve ours these year too.. Been running for way too long already….. happy new year…
Sting says
I hope u have all the blessings u wish for in 2009 and many more u didn’t even think of wishing for. Thank God for ur life and for making u the crazie that u r.
Happy new year my sweets!
aloted says
such a heartfelt prayer…and i am sure God read it…may he grant u ur heart desires accordingly to his will for your life.
happy new year dear!!!
Ms.O says
Happy New Year Babe!! I loved reading this. even when you try to be serious, you still have your amazing sense of humor. May all your dreams come through this year Amen!
mizchif says
AMEN!!! Can’t wait to hear THE TESTIMONY oh! He will do IT for you in JEsus mighty name!
Looking out for ur book on the shelves already!
Doja says
Happy New Year.
doug says
Happy New Year Vera. ‘May He grant you the desires of your heart and make all your dreams come true’.
Is your mom Russian?
Vera Ezimora says
Diamond Hawk: Awww. Thanks, boo. How come every1 thinks I’m crazy? Am I really crazy? hehehe. Welcome back from church.
Dorah: Hehehehehehe. I don’t even know where to start tackling this your prayer. LOL. Anyway, no be only marriage I dey find oo. There are plenty more things (some of which are too private to be made public). As for my mom, welll…piece of cake. lol. She’s just a character. But ehm, AMEN to your prayer oooo… ehen.
Afrobabe: AMEN!!! And I wish you the same too. May you find what you’re looking for.
QMoney: Thanks, love. Happy New Year.
Remi: Thank you oh, my sister. I’ve been praying for His wisdom so that I will not do what He does not want me to do. I pray to not ever do anything that is not His will. Thank you, Remi, and I wish you the same.
Standtall: Thanks, darling. I have taken them to Him. That’s the best decision I have made.
Boob Sister: God bless you too!! Happy New Year.
Laughter: Happy New Year to you too, darling. It is indeed a fruitful year.
Danny: Awww, I totally understand where you’re coming from. I too ran for ever!! But ultimately, I still went right back to the person I was running from. He’s the only solution, ey? Happy New Year!!
Sting: On this New Year’s day, you’re insulting me and calling me crazie? LOL. Okay fine, I’ll say AMEN either way. Thank you, my love. Thanx 4 stinging your way into my life.
Aloted: Amen!! So shall it be!! I have faith in Him that He will grant my heart’s desires. Thanks, love.
Ms O: Thanks, my darling!!! LOL @ the humor. I couldn’t help it. And I’m saying a big AMEN to your prayers.
Mizchif: Awww, thanks love. Me sef I dey look for the book for shelf oo. In short, I berra finish this book ASAP. I gotta finish this book; don’t wanna disappoint ya. And of course, I’m looking forward to that testimony too.
Doja: Happy New Year to you too, love. Wish you the best.
Vera Ezimora says
Doug: Happy New Year to you too, love. No, she’s not Russian. She’s very Igbo….although she’s yellow lol. But she studied in Russia with my dad, so they both speak the language fluently. So anyway, mom has been talking about going back. I’d love to send her back. Now that I think of it sef, I could just send her to Palin’s window! Why didn’t I think of this sooner?
Vivacious n Chic says
Happy New Year! As surely as the Lord lives, it will be a beautiful year with many more testimonies of God’s faithfulness.
We look forward to reading more beautiful posts from you this year.
Darius T. Williams says
I love this letter – but you know what – even when you’re being serious…you’re still a riot – hilarious!
Happy New Year Vera!
Rita says
Happy New Year Love…you’ve just been positioned for greatness and awesome things to happen in your life. This 2009 is going to be a satisfying and treasurable year for you. God’s love and mine…
Kunta says
Happy New Year…
What a way to start the new year.
…unto Him who is able to keep you from falling…
You’ll be fine
FFF says
amen, my sister!!!!!! it shall b onto u as u have desired! happy new year babes
Vera Ezimora says
Vivacious n Chic: Thank you darling. I’m looking forward to receiving more comments from you too. God bless you, love.
Darius: LOL. Hahaha. I dunno…I cannot help it. What are we gonna do to me? LOL. Maybe we (as in you) need to fix me a plate of something sweet!
Rita: Amen!!! I’m eagerly awaiting the awesome things. I really cannot wait. This is definitely not how I started 2008, so I’m expecting great things from The Lord.
Kunta: Happy New Year to you too. Yes, indeed…what a way to start the New Year. I wish you a prosperous one too.
Vera Ezimora says
FFF: Thank you, darling!!! How is married life??? Hope you’re making Junior for us right now as we speak??
Nefertiti says
Hey Vera, Happy new year. Just wanted you to know that God knows your heart desires, and he will order your steps to accomplish every one of them through his grace.
Temite says
Darling,
Happy new year! May you recieve all your hearts desire. I hope that I will get to attend a wedding and a book releasing party in 2009! Much Love. Your favorite blogger friend Temite!
Temite says
Glad Papa Verastic is doing well. I hope he keeps enjoying good health in this new year.
Olufunke says
I wish you a beautiful year too, and I prya God grants yo uyour heart desires and may the new year bring you to a new and exiciting walk with God.
Enjoyed reading your posts
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Vera Ezimora says
Nefertiti: Thanks, my darling. Isn’t this like the first time you’re leaving me a comment where you’re not insulting me? LOL. Hehehe. I feel special o.
Temite: Thanks love!!! Kai I cannot wait for that book release parry ooo. As for the wedding, ah… my dear go and pick out your aso-ebi, we musto rock the wedding. hehehe. Papa Verastic is doing great, thank God.
Olufunke: Thanks, love!!! May God grant you all of your heart’s desires too. And have a splendid New Year.
NoLimit says
Happy Birthday Madam Verastically Vera…
Have a brilliant day babes!!!