My little human just turned 8 months old a week ago; hard to believe that 8 months have passed already. Although I don’t remember where, I’ve probably mentioned this somewhere already that before we had Ada Verastic, we bought her a nice crib. It was not the most expensive, but it cost about $400. It took us about six hours, I think, to set it up. I had no idea that cribs came with so many parts, and as much as I don’t like it, America is determined to turn me into a DIYer.
Anyway, when we brought Ada Verastic home, she used to sleep in her crib at night (when she slept in our room), but never throughout the night, and we just thought she was doing what babies do anyway. I didn’t feel it much because my grandma was there, and because of that, Ada Verastic barely slept in the crib anyway (she slept with grandma). After grandma left, I had about two weeks of confusion and frustration because Ada Verastic used to wake up every couple of hours, and sometimes, she’d be crying and eating at the same time.
She refused to stay asleep in her crib or in her bassinet or anywhere else. Then one night, I slept on the bed with her on my chest and she slept for four hours. Woah! Just to be clear: prior to this, she used to sleep on my chest, but this was the first time it happened on the bed, and that’s because our bed is pretty high, and I was scared of sleeping with her on my chest. I did not want to fall into deep sleep and forget that a baby was sleeping on me.
Ehen, so after she slept for four hours that night, I did it several more nights, and it was working – until it stopped working. So I switched up my game, and she started sleeping next to me on the bed. That was when she truly “slept like a baby.” And that, my people, is how Ada Verastic hijacked our bed and has refused to leave since then.
I have been trying to get her to sleep in her crib at night, but to no avail. During the night, she moves around and randomly holds or touches me, as if to make sure that I’m still there. If she moves around and does not touch me because I’m too far away, she cries. I won’t lie to you by saying that this is something I don’t like. I think I blush and do mental back flips every time she reaches for me. And I don’t know how true this is, but I heard that babies know the smell of their mom. I hope it’s true.
So for now, Ada Verastic only sleeps in her crib during the day for her naps. I put her in there because she has proven several times that she cannot be trusted on the bed alone. Ever since she started rolling around, she seems to be on a personal mission to roll off the bed. Now that she’s crawling, though, she’s even more mobile, as you can imagine, so she’s not allowed to sleep on the adult bed with no adult.
I’d like to get her to sleep through the night in her crib, but somewhere deep inside my heart, I think I might be lying to myself. There was a day I put her in her crib at night to see if she’d stay there without crying. I got into my bed and I kept waiting anxiously for her to cry for me. Finally, she did. So yeah, it seems like I might need her as much as she needs me.
Who knows how to get a baby to sleep in her crib? I’m asking for my future self.