Once again, a whole month has passed since I last published a post. It isn’t just one month since I published a post, but also one month since I have written anything period. I know that one of the ways that depression is diagnosed is when a person loses joy/interest in the things they once loved. I am not depressed. I haven’t lost joy or interest in writing. What I have lost is inspiration. I used to say that I was just tired, but I realize now that I am not tired; I am uninspired.
I have thought about many, many things to write about in the past month, but every time I open my blog up, the words elude me. And it’s really, really weird for me because writing has been one constant thing in my life. As I mentioned in my previous post, there is a lot I DO want to write about, but cannot write about right now. I’ll write about them when it’s time.
For now, I made an intentional choice to write today. I concluded that the only way to get out of this funk is to do that which I don’t feel like doing right now. So I’m here, and I’m writing, and I hope that in two days (Friday), I’ll put up another post – whether or not I feel like it. If you’re in a writing funk too, then you should write. You can write about being in a funk and not wanting to write. Before you know it, you’d have written a whole page/post/chapter.
If you emailed me in the past two months, your email probably went unanswered, and for that I am sorry. But it definitely got read. And some of you made me cry with your words. There was a particular day that I received some news that I did not like. When I received it, it didn’t affect me and I didn’t react. But then I went home and thought about it and that was when I got really sad. Then literally just then, an email came in from a Sweet Potato encouraging me. That meant everything. EVERYTHING. You guys are the best.
So, yeah, I’ve written about not wanting to write, and it has turned into a whole post. I’ll be back on Friday to write some more. I want to tell you about church this past Sunday.
Meanwhile, I miss you. I miss our back and forth comments and the ruckus laughter you always erupt in me. You all are my special kind of crazy. We’re going to be together forever.
P.S. I know you’re thinking, “Vera, you’ve been gone for a whole month and you’re coming back with a post about writer’s block?” And to that, I say, ahn ahn! Wait nah. Somebody cannot play with you again?
Jenny says
Hugs
Vera Ezimora says
Thank you, doll!
Azzy says
welcome back
Vera Ezimora says
It feels soooo good to be back! 😀
Taiwo says
Always ready when you are.
Vera Ezimora says
Thank you, Taiwo!
Ada says
We are not here for the ‘gist’. We are here because we love you Vera. Always remember that.
Vera Ezimora says
And I always, always feel the love. But thank you for the reminder. You are Bae!
Inumidun says
You are always welcome whenever you are ready. Sending love and hugs
Vera Ezimora says
Thank you, darling!