Once again, a whole month has passed since I last published a post. It isn’t just one month since I published a post, but also one month since I have written anything period. I know that one of the ways that depression is diagnosed is when a person loses joy/interest in the things they once loved. I am not depressed. I haven’t lost joy or interest in writing. What I have lost is inspiration. I used to say that I was just tired, but I realize now that I am not tired; I am uninspired.
I have thought about many, many things to write about in the past month, but every time I open my blog up, the words elude me. And it’s really, really weird for me because writing has been one constant thing in my life. As I mentioned in my previous post, there is a lot I DO want to write about, but cannot write about right now. I’ll write about them when it’s time.
For now, I made an intentional choice to write today. I concluded that the only way to get out of this funk is to do that which I don’t feel like doing right now. So I’m here, and I’m writing, and I hope that in two days (Friday), I’ll put up another post – whether or not I feel like it. If you’re in a writing funk too, then you should write. You can write about being in a funk and not wanting to write. Before you know it, you’d have written a whole page/post/chapter.
If you emailed me in the past two months, your email probably went unanswered, and for that I am sorry. But it definitely got read. And some of you made me cry with your words. There was a particular day that I received some news that I did not like. When I received it, it didn’t affect me and I didn’t react. But then I went home and thought about it and that was when I got really sad. Then literally just then, an email came in from a Sweet Potato encouraging me. That meant everything. EVERYTHING. You guys are the best.
So, yeah, I’ve written about not wanting to write, and it has turned into a whole post. I’ll be back on Friday to write some more. I want to tell you about church this past Sunday.
Meanwhile, I miss you. I miss our back and forth comments and the ruckus laughter you always erupt in me. You all are my special kind of crazy. We’re going to be together forever.
P.S. I know you’re thinking, “Vera, you’ve been gone for a whole month and you’re coming back with a post about writer’s block?” And to that, I say, ahn ahn! Wait nah. Somebody cannot play with you again?
Hugs
Thank you, doll!
welcome back
It feels soooo good to be back! 😀
Always ready when you are.
Thank you, Taiwo!
We are not here for the ‘gist’. We are here because we love you Vera. Always remember that.
And I always, always feel the love. But thank you for the reminder. You are Bae!
You are always welcome whenever you are ready. Sending love and hugs
Thank you, darling!