This year, like all the ones before it, has been unpredictable. I want to tell you about how I had good times and bad times, how I went to bed crying and woke up laughing, how I got so frustrated so many times that certain things were not how and where I wanted them, how I sat in my car and cried to myself, and to God, and then, wiped my tears and came inside the house with a counterfeit smile plastered on my face because I did not want mom to be worried. I want to tell you about how I stayed financially-challenged throughout the entire year, but somehow, I always managed to make it by, and at the end, I even had some change. But I won’t tell you these things.J
Today is the 29th day of December. In two days, the year will be over. Still, I am expectant. There are things I asked begged asked and begged God to do that He has not done, and since, to Him, a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day [2 Peter 3:8], I’ll keep my hands open for His blessings and favor.
As I reflect on the 116 posts I put up this year – the post you’re currently reading makes it 117 – I cannot help but reflect on the state of my mind when I put those posts up. Here are some of them, in chronological order: I think about my post on February 2nd, the one where I celebrated my blog’s anniversary by answering everyone’s questions. And I think of Valentine’s Day, a day that started out being as plain as Thursday, a day I planned on staying home and saturating my mind with Nigerian movies that test and insult my intelligence, and a day that ended up being the best Valentine’s Day of my life.
And I think about April 1st, and how I blogged about my engagement, the one that never happened. I enjoyed the comments so much that I almost forgot I was not even engaged. Sometimes, my ring finger feels empty, as if something is missing. Strange. How can it miss what it has never had? And I think about May 7th, the day I blogged about the shoes that fit. That was the day Mr. Shoes got his famous name. I love the name, by the way.
I think about the launch of my online radio on June 23rd, and I think about the fickleness of my voice and the anxiety of my heart, and I cannot help but smile at the overwhelming support I received that day, and all the days that have followed. And I think about July 5th, and the emotions with which I blogged about the home-going of Mommy Shoes (Mr. Shoes’ mom) who left us on June 20th. It was with sadness, reluctance, grief, anger, and an understandable but questionable sense of betrayal by God that I put that post up.
And on October 20th, I blogged about the 17-day fun I had with Mr. Shoes, the private resort he took me to, the Shawarma Pita I tasted for the first time, the almost-revolting tall cup of tea he made me drink because of my cold, and my inability to pass said cold on to him (Oh, I didn’t mention this inability in that post). And finally, on December 4th, I featured a few generous vendors who offered some wonderful discounts on their products. It was my first time featuring vendors, and by God’s grace, I’ll do it again.
I apologize for the rather extensive post. The point of it is to say Thank You. Thank You for all your love and support, and to show my appreciation, I now present you – yes, you, dear reader – with this certificate of appreciation (click on certificate to magnify it).
***See you in 2010! Happy New Year!!!***